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Thursday, May 19, 2011 @ 5:04 PM
So much for love notes, love talks, lovey-dovey stare, and impressing me. Im putting all this shit of yours aside. You told me im your number one right? I dont believe it. You told me that your mum found out right? I dont believe. Because if your mum find out, then why is it are you still chasing another girl? Who do you think you are, going around leaving scars? Im sorry to say this, youre just another playboy. All those mushy words, are all lies. The reason why we broke up, its not entirely your fault. 1/4 of it is also my fault because, i didnt know you would be like the rest of my past. I dare to say, Yes im blind of not seeing the risk of being your first one, Yes im death of not hearing advices of relationships of quoters. But, No im not afraid of making you regret what you did to me. Why is it are you like the rest of my past? I thought you were different as i was your first. I thought you were different as you have deep feelings of other peoples' thinking. I guess that was acting, right? You should get an award for Cheating On Girls' Feelings. After awhile when we started, you ignored me. You hardly text me. And when you text me, you show me attitude. Eh donkey, you even text other girls as you told me. Dont deny, i remembered. Sorry if i had been too rough after our break up. Sorry for showing you the bitchy side of me after our break up. But that's me. If you treat me the wrong way, i'll treat you back the way you dont like. Set?! Oh and, sorry doesnt heal my hurt feelings you ass. Im not an easy person. To get my mind of certain kind of things, nowadays, im out at the stadium jogging, or in my room playing habbo. :) yesyes, i know habbo its lame. But so what? Its funnnn. In fact, with my boo playing habbo, its even more awesome. Hahaha, alright. Gotta go. Wanna play habbo. :> Peace out. Tuesday, May 17, 2011 @ 8:48 PM
I FOUND A NEW ONE. BETTER THAN THE REST. A SUPER CARING GUY THAT I WANT. AND NOW I GOT THE BEST. that's right. 170511 \m/ <3 new love, new start. i love my babyboo <3
Monday, May 16, 2011 @ 6:45 PM
 Sorry bloggie is dead. Been busy with MYE's. Today was the last paper. So just now, of course uh slack! Huhu ^^ Went to Sunplaza, then MacD for late lunch, after that, went to Nicole's house. Her dog cute giler! 1yearsold plusplus. :) But i didnt touch it, duh. See the pict abv? Me, Jamine and Nicole. ^^ Theyre awesome-to-daa-coree. <3 Okay, change topic. So, me and him? We're over. Our chemistry love is now history. Im sorry, boo. You hurt me too much. Cant take the pain much longer. Like people said; "Be single rather than being with the one that hurts you." So yeah. Youve not move on. Same here. But, im trying my best, bit by bit to move on, boo. iLoveyou, veryverymuch. But, I dont think we should be together anymore. And plus your mum found out. Should i believe you? For now, yes, i believe you. But if youre caught lying, trust me, one day ill have you begging on your knees for me. And, i hope karma will slap you before i do. Kay, goodbye my boo<3. So, i found someone who's trying to make me feel better each day. And his name is Synyster Gates xD Cheh, no lah. His name is Apis. Eventhough we argue a million times, he never fail to make me smile at least one time each day. He's trying to make me forget abt my boo</3. :( Im sorry Apis if im troubling you. Cause it takes hard for me smile right after i pour a river. :'( I know im pampered, but youre still there, not giving up. Thanks. Thanks 1218638912 times. Infinity. Thankyou, my dear friend.
Saturday, May 7, 2011 @ 5:44 PM
How can the sun be shining when my whole world is crying? Assalamualaikum. I'm an idiot. Sitting down in my room, staring into space. What else am I doing, oh wait, that's right, emo-ing. Why? Because I'm missing you. You don't know how many people I've told that I missed you with a " :'( " face. It's been days when you prepaid when down. I have one question for you; Do you miss me back? I know i'm suppose to be studying as Mid-year's is here instead of using my laptop. But, I really miss you. I wait for a few hours, hoping you'd be online. You never did. There's one thing about me that I guess I haven't told you yet; I loose love easily. It's just my brain feeling. That's what i'm afraid of. Hope you're reading this, bby. I really, really, really, down-to-earth miss you with all my heart. :'( How stupid of me thinking you were everything? That day, when you left, I was bruised. You left a huge scar over at my heart. But I don't think you knew, because you running around stabbing girls' hearts. The day you told me that you've got a new one, I went all crazy-emo. I guess I'm not over you. Now, when our rare conversations online, I don't know why, my heart pumps so fast. Everytime you crossed my mind, I try my very best to tell myself that I got a new one and you've got a new one too. You were once my number #1. Right now, you're just my number #2, as my new one replaced number #1. Ever since your shadows fade, I'm here alone, crying myself to sleep almost everyday. When my new one came into my life, he makes me feel a bit better. He makes me smile without hurt. He makes me laugh. Whenever he looks at me, I feel butterflies in my stomach eventhough he's already mine. Oh how I wish he was you. :'( Syikin, wake up. You've got a new boyfriend already. Snap out of the old one. You've got to move on with life. He left. He moved on. It's your turn. Sorry for not moving on. Sorry for being an idiot staying and hoping. Sorry for not letting him go. I loved him too much. But, I'm trying to move on, bit by bit. I'm hanging on there. I just need more time to move on completely. Wednesday, May 4, 2011 @ 5:12 PM
 One day when the sky is falling, I'd be standing right next to you. Assalamualaikum. Ever look into the clear, bright, blue sky thinking what's it like being tortured? Well, that's the case for me. I know life isn't fair, but at least some part of life should be perfect, right? Isn't that what we were born for? Why is it, people bully people? People have feelings. Why is it, teachers embarrass students in front of other people? Why is it, people having heartbreaks almost every month? Okay, I'm gonna get to the point. The friggin' people in this world are changing. Weird, right? Everybody wants a super duper perfect day, at least one day. I want that day to be the day me standing right next to him, having the time of our life. That's all I ever want. Never Say Never, right? :) #wishnumberone Sunday, May 1, 2011 @ 5:54 PM
 Helluuu ;D Picture above, no edits. ;) Original yo. Hehh. I was bored, so i coloured up my nails and place a tiny heart below my eye. ;3 Awesome yoyoyo. Hah, k lame. Baru balek from wedding. My mum's friend's daughter got married. Selamat Pengantinn Baruuuu ayerr. :) ♥ Lalalala Lalalala, Elmo's worlddd. Haish, mak dgn bapak aku ni eh, gadoh jerrrr. Tatingszxc perzxcss. I'm nearing my mid-year's examm, can cooperate or not ah? -.- Anyway, to those nearing the exams or having it right now, all the best yeah?! ;D ♥ OhmyGod, I miss my primary school friends so much. :'( It tears me up whenever I rewind precious memories of we laughing, smiling, crying and fighting together. Pretty pretty please, can I rewind the clock to 2010? I wanna say my last goodbye to them. Hopefully, just hopefully, they do not forget what I've given them, or they've given me. I still love them, truckloads ♥ The only one which I've been meeting up with always is Faradylla ♥. Alhamdulillah, me and her are still isi dengan kuku. We still joke around, laughed, smiled at ourselves. I love her. Oh Allah, help us keep this friendship till eternity, amin ♥ To that particularly jerk out there; DO IT LIKE A DUDE, IDIOT.
Saturday, April 30, 2011 @ 12:58 PM
Everything is just fucked up. I hate life. Why can't my life be at least better? Oh wait, my life was ruined by a little boy who thinks he's so everything. You make my life fucked up, bastard. Can't you just mind your own business? I had enough of your games. You have your own life. Destroy your own life, do not destroy others. At school, you think you have soo many friends? You're gonna loose them if you don't change your freaking attitude. See how pissed am I? Once, is enough. Twice, stop. Thrice, fuck off. You say to my guy that I easily get angry? Well, I wouldn't be this angry if you didn't piss the hell out of me. You don't know how angry I can get. Now, you're just seeing half of it. And I bet that you do not want to see full of it. Change your freaking attitude, shortie. This is reality. If you go on like this, reality will hit you, hard.  She's the girl that went through the pain. She's the girl that felt the hurt that I went through. She's the girl that I loved as a sister. She's the girl that laughed with me, cried with me, hugged me whenever things went wrong. When family problems occured, she would cheer me up and make me smile. Thankyou, Syakirah. Sayer sayang awak <3 |
